Carpe Diem

                Attack life. It’s going to kill you anyway.

                Why fear when you can’t fear at all? What’s the point of hiding away from the reality when you can control it all by yourself anyway? Seize the day.

                I would have to accept what there is to accept for me but of course not just deal with it. If I have to do something about it, I would. Strike while the iron is hot, strike while the iron is cold too. It doesn’t matter anyway. Life doesn’t need too much seriousness. You can’t spoil all your life by becoming oh-so serious! No one gets out of it alive anyway. Add colors and spice up your lifestyle. Do what you have to do.

                Try new stuffs while I still can. I’ll never know. Life is predictably unpredictable. Tell stories, convey emotions, do actions, take parts. I will never know what’s going to happen next but wouldn’t it be a much-better-thing to consider if you are prepared? Isn’t it cool-ER?? I’d take every chance that’d greet my way. Opportunities doesn’t knock only once if you have a backdoor, so I will make myself always open to chances if I missed one. It wouldn’t be the end of the world anyway.

                Never be afraid. All of us possess our own special purposes; I don’t have to compare myself to others. I wouldn’t believe that there’s a point in competing with them. I am unique; I wouldn’t need insecurities to hamper my way. I’d be me. No ifs, ands or buts about. I’d spend my life doing what my heart tells me to. But I will always consider others’ feelings. I know regrets are inevitable, they’re resentful right. But I know I can always do something about it.

                I’d love as if I’ve never been hurt. I’d care as if I master medicine. I’d reach out as if I have extendable arms. I’d give as if I have everything. I’d dance as if I’ll never dance again. I’d sing to the top of my lungs. I’d make them know about my God. I’d take education like it’s the only treasure in the world. I’d protect as if I’m Joan of Arc. I’d live as if there’s no tomorrow. I’d take every chance. Life is short. Don’t make it shortened. But that doesn’t mean we have to rush. Cherish every moment, seize every opportunity.

                Lastly,   I wouldn’t count seconds. I’d make every second count. :)

PBB Teen Clash of 2010 Auditions: a clash of teen spirits

                       Over 5,000 dreams were waiting- hoping. Under the murdering heat of the sun, outside SM City Davao, thousands of teenagers all over the Davao Region have been waiting anxiously for their turns in the audition. Over 5,000 teens gathered only with one aim- to be one of the "housemates" in the reality show in ABS-CBN, The Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition 2010. Admittedly, I was one of the thousands of youth who stood up there and endured the what seemed to be a "kilometer-long line" for almost 3 hours. Well, I stood up for this motivation, "Charge to experience". Promise! It was really a "what-the-hell thing". 

                        Who would like to be squeezed so hard in the middle of the huge crowd anyway? If it wasn't for my company- Ms. Jessa June Uyan, I would have gone straight home right from the start. Upon seeing the amazingly huge crowd, I was undeniably motivated. Yes. Motivated. It was really fun gazing at the other teens’ faces, there are some who wore really thick make ups and heavy outfits. But their postures seemed to melt with the burning sun. Haha. :)) I was only wearing a pants, shirts and sneakers. So Probinsyana. 

                        What added to the fun was that, we were able to gain "instant friends". Yeah. We weren't the only youth travelers. There were also some who traveled all the way from Cagayan, Bukidnon and Cotabato. Wow. They were determined. All eyes on the prize. Great. I wasn't even thinking of getting into the list. Again, it was only a ''charge to experience thing''. They were really brave-warriors.

                        We were like standing under the heat of the sun for more than 3 hours but the line would only move an inch per 30 minutes. I was already confused of what to feel and how to act. I was like dying out of boredom and my knees were already shaking out of exhaustion. But it wasn’t until the security guard opened the path to the proper line. I hurriedly grabbed Jessa with me and we ran with the excited teens straight to the line.

                        It was really thrilling and exciting. We found ourselves finally falling in the real lineup. The people around us were pushing so hard that we were already pressed tightly and I can hardly breathe. But I still found it really exciting. I wasn’t annoyed or what. I was still laughing so hard in the inside.

                        Jessa’s face couldn’t be drawn already. Mine too of course. Imagine the crowd! What grabbed my attention was that there was this young man who was still surfing the net with his iPhone despite the hard scenery. There was also this guy who was complaining about the people who kept breaking the line. He was a tough one. The two of them, Jessa and I became friends. Let’s say, Instant best friends. Kuya Kevin, Kuya Jimwell and Jessa served as my source of strength.

                        We barely knew each other but we were really determined not to stay away from each other. Whatever happens, we should always be intact. It was so fun because we seemed to like know each other for how many years now. We served as each other’s support system.

                        The crowd grew impatient and mad. They started pushing really hard that there was already a semi-stampede happening. The security guards couldn’t block the mad teens anymore. Are the teens from Mindanao this desperate already? I don’t know. I was starting to lose oxygen- but it was still fun.

                        The auditions finally started. Our waiting time for our turns in the auditions seemed to be the greatest irony of our audition time. The audition lasted for just approximately 3 minutes and if they don’t like you, never mind the torments you’ve just undergone awhile ago. You just have to go straight home.

                        A few rejoiced but thousands more were frustrated and disappointed. I and my instant friends didn’t make it. But it was still fun. Hell yeah. We were still intact. We were still winners by self proclamation. We were already “The Big Four”. Whatever. Haha. The experience was worth it all. I never thought I could reach that far. I’m still proud of myself somehow. I can finally say I have already tried- no regrets at all. J

                        Being there and getting an audition number was already a blessing. To be chosen as the Mindanao representative for the PBB Teen Edition was already a bonus. To gain really good friends in a moment? WINNER. 

hell or what? NO. JUST A SCHOOL.

                     How do you define school when you're on the fringe of prolonged agonies- piled up projects, unending assignments, murdering exams- amd worse, you still can't get enough of the reason why you still have failing grades- yes. it is conclusively striking- you're becoming bitterER, and you define school as HELL!

                   

                    There are just times where you thought you've done all the ghadamned things you have to do. you thought you're gonna blow out of exhaustion and you just can't stop blaming school, teachers and so on for your unbeatable stress. You can't help but to curse the teachers behind their backs for laying all the miseries in the world at you.How could they do all these things to you- an innocent, paying minor. How in the world? And you ask for justice and concord but still they don't get it. They still inflict murdering, insurmountable schoolworks on you which seemd to be all IMMORTAL. There's no way you can't beat them.

                      But hey. Pause a second. Going back at the first place, think and try to remember, did you do your part on the first step? Did you take a step? Or did you just take all these things for granted and here you are right now- cramming to death. ? Regrets would come but they will all just pass away. Just think :]       

magic. :]

                    I can't help myself from falling inlove with the magic of the stars at night. Their twinkles allure my eyes and make me believe that there is something really very special- unnoticed- up there- and beneath them. Something out of the ordinary lies  and I just have to figure out what it is.. But I don't even know where to start.

                    The mystery is thrilling. The scene is stupendous. I can't help it. I just have to find out what lies beneath all these stars.. the world.
 

                    

all against the FURY OF NATURE.

                            Aren’t we supposed to enjoy fully our lives as teenagers? Aren’t we supposed to have all the fun we can get especially from the nature? How are we gonna do that nowadays? How – without worrying too much from the unpredictable fierce of nature?

                Darn. I really can’t help but think too much of what’s happening around. Earthquakes, Typhoons, Blizzards, Hail storms, Tsunamis- these are just some of how the nature claims back its glory or so. How are we gonna fight all these? All the worlds in a state of calamity (by self declaration) and I can’t help but think ‘are we still gonna reach the sun rise tomorrow?’

                I can’t help it. I am scared, I can’t hide it. Scared! What a litote! I just can’t help but feel so deprived of the things we can enjoy from the nature. I can’t help but feel deprived- by the nature. Classes are cancelled habitually, we can’t go out time and again because we’re still uncertain of our safety and our actions are so damn limited. Darn! Yesterday, we were enjoying the beach’s big waves, but now, we just can’t be confident enough. Our lives are still at stake. Often times, I would ask myself why are all these things happening? Can we put all the blame to the people? 

                The nature’s fury is inexorable. Worse, unpredictable. It is finally coming back to claim what needs to be claimed- LIVES. Now how are we going to fight a battle we can’t even see clearly? Are we ready?

                How are we going to fix all these? The nature’s vengeance has just begun but we’re already conclusively losing our strengths. Many have lost their shelters, their properties and despondently, many have paid the nature with their lives. The mayhem caused by the nature is hard to mend. We don’t even know where to start by now.

                I am trying really hard to grasp the understanding of what’s happening around. Actually, thinking about the things I would have done for fun as a youngster- none of them seem to matter anymore in this state of mishap. I couldn’t be more selfish.

                You? Don’t just read there and do nothing. Do something. We have to join the support system of the Earth. Never even fail to remember God in these times of predicaments. Help out. Pray. Pray harder. Act out.